In the past, I’ve used this blog to talk about getting through hard times, share words of encouragement and (hopefully) reach someone, anyone who is in need of comfort. I’ve talked about job loss, a lot, because its the path I have been down recently. Today I want to celebrate the end of that season and all the growth it had to offer, and how God’s hand was on every part of it.
A few days ago, I found myself sitting in an office, discussing a position that I would consider a dream job for this age and season in my life. And it seemed like it was almost a dream. I was offered a position. I promised to think about it for 24 hours, and went home, stunned, wondering how my resume had even gotten into their hands and thanking God. I told my husband, who had been supportive through the past 8 months of transition, but it still hadn’t sunken in for me.
I start tomorrow and the pieces are coming together. There was the piece of the puzzle where God warned me about the roller coaster ride of transition that was to follow but instructed me to trust in Him and that something great was coming. That was then followed by being laid off from a job that I had unhealthily put my everything into. Devastated I sat on the couch, cried, and asked God why this was in His plan.
There was the piece of healing, of tremendous growth and learning. It was the piece where God told me to call my church and ask if there was anything I could help them with during the week. I thought it was to stay busy, but He had different plans. There I met some wonderful people, gained friends and wisdom and grew into a person who wasn’t dependent on a job or people’s opinion to feel good. I found joy, I found peace in the midst of trial, I found my voice, I was reacquainted with my passion and purpose, and began trusting the One who made me instead of the feeble work of my own hands. I was comfortable, secure in who I was without a paycheck, without a title, by just listening to the voice of God in my spirit and actually believing, trusting that the things He promised me (and all of us) are true.
There was the piece where I was told that somehow they had my resume (someone I served for turned it into them), and that my name had come up in prayer by people who didn’t even know me, for the position. And the fact that I know this is the position, for which I’m equipped at a time such as this.
I’m a different person. I’m changed forever because I know who I am without the opinion of anyone else but Him. And I know this is where I’m supposed to be because there is peace. The position, the timing, the way it happened, and where I know I’m going in life, the pieces all fit together. But I won’t do it by myself. I won’t fall into an endless cycle of performance. I trust that no matter how big the task, that my God will equip me and lead me to do what is right, and I’ll do it for Him.
I feel truly blessed today, and still a little stunned by God’s goodness. You see, even when you can’t see clearly in the dust storm of chaos, remember, God has a plan, and its the perfect one for your life. You just have to learn to listen for Him and to trust that He will lead you down the road you are supposed to go. And then you’ll get to the spot in that path where you see just how great He is, and how much He cares about you.